behind...

So i said i was going to be avidly active with this but I am really, REALLY. Lagging behind.. So my life in general for the last (however many days it's been sense my last post) hasn't been that quite different. Besides the fact that i feel like i can't trust any of my friends but 1 anymore.. Like it seems like (now when i blog it is all anonymous so either i'll use a fake name or i'll just leave them namless) most of my friend's anymore just don't care anymore .. It feels like i used to have a bunch of close knit friends, and now i have only one ... It's depressing sometimes it makes you not even want to get up in the morning. I mean it seems like my "friends" consider me as a last resort anymore they could give a shit about me or my feelings.. I mean for example my one friend is turning out to not even have an opinion of their own. It's pretty sad when they say oh can "insert name here" come with us to "insert place here" and then there so called "friends" saying NO I DONT LIKE THEM... and just saying oh.. okay. Like wtf, if the person was your friend, you wouldn't just say oh okay they won't come with us, just because your so called "friends" didn't like them WHAT THE HELL. Oh well i hate muggles.. Oh and another time i sit with my "friends" they sit and ignore me the whole time i'm there.. when i try to join the conversation they just awkwardly stop talking ... but yet when i go sit with other people because of that.. They get pissed off at me.. Wtf oh well i think that is enough ranting about people for now ..